Cheng Jin=Smile For Life, For Ever!

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Hey! I am Cheng Jin and welcome to my blog! All you readers out there are free to tag the tagboard yeah! :) Smile for life and be happy! =)
Best friends are forever loved. I love MUSIC, ESPECIALLY CLASSICAL MUSIC AND SOME POP MUSIC.
Loves K-pop too, and singers like Taeyon from SNSD, Kim Ah Joong, and more.
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My motto is, always help others and give the most to them! and be happy :)
"Do not judge others easily, for we don't have the time to love them." - Mother Theresa. <3

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The One And Only Koh Cheng Jin.

HELLO i am Koh Cheng Jin. I am currently turning 15 this year. I am a girl, from SOTA's MUSIC FACULTY :D and SNYO's V2/V1.I love God and Life, and friends are very important to me. I love Beethoven and Plum blossom too. Plum blossom thrives in winter, and I admire their endurance, like those of Beethoven's. :)

Current favourite composers:

Mozart: Music that allows my soul to wander around, (joyful music) always never fail to put make me happy, (dark music) never fail to make me ponder about Mozart's other character which is not commonly seen.
Beethoven: Music that allows me to know him better, and to see how music is the best form of expression that should be hold in high reverence.
Tchaikovsky: Music that allows me to realise that...life= music, and romantic music are not always mushy like korean dramas' music. It can be dark too.
Bach: Music that (similar to Mozart) allows me to experience a roller-coaster ride and being in a forest with polyphonic animal/nature sounds.
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A smile costs nothing but gives much. It enriches those who receive without making poorer those who give. It takes but a moment, but the memory of it sometimes lasts forever. None is so rich or mighty that he cannot get along without it and none is so poor that he cannot be made rich by it. Yet a smile cannot be bought, begged, borrowed, or stolen, for it is something that is of no value to anyone until it is given away. Some people are too tired to give you a smile. Give them one of yours, as none needs a smile so much as he who has no more to give. ~Author Unknown

8:28 PM

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

hey,
I did not change from last year to now. I am still chengjin, am or was, the SAME.
I am most aware of whether did i change or not. I am sitting in the Conscious seat of Self, in my heart. So I am the one who's fully aware of what and who I am, and whether i have changed or not.
Yes, i agree with you, that i sometimes have the mentality to change because of some negative processes that happened in my life. I felt it wasn't fair when somethings doesnt work in my favor. I felt as i have been somewhat isolated.
I wanted so much to be more recognizable.
But, i did not change. I am still the one I am, last yr and this yr. Bcos i love the way I am shaped till now. And i dont want to lose the old me, so i am still the OLD me.

And please, i am not a camwhore. Neither do i want to be one, cause being a camwhore reflects self-indulgence.
But i DONT.
Yes, i go crazy about idols, like LEEMINHO haha. He's just an actor that i watched in a nice drama, and i truly ADMIRE his character in that drama. That's why, i go crazy over him, but please, i do not like him. Im just CRAZY over him when ppl mention his name muahaha. My idol is also beethoven, and what's wrong with it. What's your prob, he inspired me. ohplease, i dont even have the freedom to have an idol right? are you implying and indicating that i'm not FIT to have one? well i guess thats not what u are implying, if so, then whats your prob.

Like leeminho for what? it's not like he'll fly over to singapore and say hi to me and make my heart melt or whatever yucky yeeek stuffs. I only admired him as a personified idol, please.
I do not go FRANTICALLY CRAZY over guys. EEW, you made me sound like some slut. This is very insulting and i dont like it, PRINCESS FLUTTERBY.
Atfirst when i came into this school, i don't care about anything except only for STUDIES and MUSIC. But ppl around me influenced me alot, and i dare not say that the influence on me doesn't take any effect, it did.
Ppl have crushes even in sec one, and i felt that it's absolutely "irrelevant" to your life as an early teenager. Studies are much more important and what's more, we're all too young anw.
But, this guy with the warm smile touched me in early april, and that's the rarest warmest smile i have ever seen, so yeah im enthused. but not now anymore, as i have told you long ago.
Yes, i always LOVE THE THINGS OF THIS WORLD. God created so many wonderful things in this world for us humans to enjoy and live with. I always love all of them.
And no, the person i liked, is not to blame.
There's actually NO ONE to blame, except myself. I'm the one who let the influences from ppl around me to get the better of me, im the one who is easily affected emotionally, by other ppl. But i still do not change. I learnt new stuffs everyday, and i keep the old ones.
i can promise you that i have my own feelings, i have my own character, i have my own special parts to be happy of.
And i didnt say that facebook status you posted, is for me. Please don't be so judgemental, YET.

The "ohmygod, oh my bra , oh my tian"....or whatever, is what I say in EXCLAMATION, girl.what's the prob with saying "ohmybra?" it's just a piece of cloth. comeon dont make me go into detail.LOL.-.-
Btw, yeah my mum is scary, my mum is fierce, but i dont curse the one who feeds me. i am not that bad like you said. i said, she is like a monster. people stereotype monsters as scary, fierce, sometimes evil. yeah that was what i meant, and it's just an adjective to describe my mum, but this is definitely not cursing, and i dont curse, like you do.And i have much much more words to describe my mum, because i also know she cares for me, as a mother would, for her child.

Yes, bamboo is like a *****. Yes, i admitted that i have said that. I know i dont understand bamboo that well, but atleast i know some of bamboo's past that you dont know, so i have more understanding of him, than you do. And ***** is also just an adjective, definitely not a curse, and it doesnt insults ppl, because if people know that they are ******* themselves, then they will not get insulted, because they're alr subconscious.
You are the one who thinks you're so original and perfect, and your words really contradict, dear.
I do not think i am perfect. Like what you said, we have our own flaws. What did i say that resulted in you thinking that im perfect, come on, lets see what evidences you got. PPl who think they're perfect, are always not humble, and they think they OWN everything, they think they always stand out, they think they're ALWAYS RIGHT when apparently they're NOT, they think that other ppl cannot be compared to themselves. And now, compare me with these. Am I thinking that im PERFECT? NO. I don't, and don't stereotype me so easily.
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Well, i never said that bamboo's a PIG. Omg, he's doesnt have enough fats to be one. He's not a pig, neither is his personality like one. I didnt say that.
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I do not want to be a coward, because a coward never learn to be brave, even to stand up for himself/herself.
And i am trying hard not to be one, even though i have Ochlophobia.
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And, the post(read the previous one) is not directed at you, and im not cursing your parents or whatever. I am quoting it from a book i read, which you obviously know the title alr, in my previous post. I am saying it, for myself, and other ppl who appreciates and accept who they are. It's not directed at you, really.You can answer your name anyway, and it's what i'll do too, but just answering more.
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ok, so you're saying you didnt change but im the one who changed? do you really know me THAT well? it's not like you are my friend since kindergarten.
You are not me, you dont experience WHAT im experiencing, ofcourse you're not conscious whether i have changed or not, so please dont easily judge me, because it may be the reverse way round, but you dont know. I cant say if you're the one who changed, because im not you, and i dont know and i dont feel your thoughts , my mind is not your mind.
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I dont hate you, i dont hate anyone, cause i believe hating ppl and bearing grudges will never NEVER NEVER improve the situation, and it only adds burden and emotional stress to yourself, so why bear hatred in your heart? I dont hate you dear. Dont misunderstand. I will never hate you.

Anw, i just wanna tell you that Yes, you're my best bestest friend that i once can communicate well with, and one whom i confess all my inner secrets with, one i truly treasured, one i truly admire and one i truly appreciated, because you have supported me when i was down, you have comforted me when i was sad, you have cheered me up when i was depressed, and actually in the whole of my 13+ years of life, you're the only friend that i felt and was closest to.not joking, really i swear you are. You are the nicest friend that one can share joy and happiness with, and vice versa..
You are always there when i needed you, and i still want you to be my accompanist if circumstances allow, but ofcourse, not BFF anymore, but like you said ofcourse we can still be friends. Quarrels are just obstacles, like the AIR between the two north poles of two magnets, but i believe, if you add a metal between, the two magnets will be attracted back, but now only with the metal thing in between, so they're not making any contact with each other still.
Let us forgive each other, and let us both apologize if we had done anything wrong, and let us once again embrace our lives with our hearts and soul, and let us continue be friends though.
I STILL WANT YOU TO BE MY ACCOMPANIST, 'CAUSE I BELIEVE AND PROMISED YOU, THAT I WILL GIVE YOU YOUR CHANCE THAT YOU HAVE BEEN DEPRIVED OF, AND THAT WE WILL WORK WELL TOGETHER WITH HAPPINESS AND JOY. Just treat this as the last-thank-you gift, of being my oncebestest friend in my 13+ yrs of life, and i hope ms yang will really really really agree, and i really do mean it too. I have not done anything to thankyou so far, so i want you to be my accompanist, and walk this final path of a bestie, with me.
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Good luck. ^^