Today the moon is bright.

I can see the phosphorescence light from the yellowish shade of the luminous moon...beautiful....perhaps it's because today is the last day of cny...

I think the world is beautiful...
That is if i notice even the smallest hapenings around me..
because it's actually these miniature happenings that can make me smile...
instead of only being aware of BIG happenings around me..

:)
It's about exploring with every details of Life.
-

Yay done IA Journal!
ahh ankle still pain.
sigh.
HAPPY LAST DAY OF CNY! :)

Just came back from YO reh.

Was fun, and good.

ZHU EN IS DAMN DAMN PROOOOO
ROCCOO THEME, SO PRO....
MAKES ME DROOL
LOOK AT THOSE BIGGGGGY HANDS
AHHHH
PROOO~~
REALY! LIKE PROFESSIONAL CELLIST...

AH OKOK GOOD LUCK GOOD LUCK TO HIM.
really hard to believe that he's only 15 yrs old!
come at support YO CONCERT!!!^^

oh just realised that the YO'S coming concert is on 30 MARCH!
and on 30 march,
I HAVE SCHOOL
I HAVE DENTAL APPOINTMENT
I HAVE TO ACCOMPANY MY SIS FOR HER VIOLIN EXAM AT 10 19AM.
I HAVE YO CONCERT, NEED TO REACH ESPLANADE AT 3PM....

okay now i conclude that Dr Yap's gonna have a hard time to give me a leave of absence..Ok sigh.
-
Now im at my grandma's house..
my cousin fell on his head.
The bad part is,

There's BLOOD. :( :( :(
He cried just now. He's only 6/7 yrs old... :(

Now he's on his way to hospital...
GET WELL SOON EUGENE!!! :( :( :(
:

P.S NEW BLOGSKIN! ^^
Trying to figure out how to put music in....=X
SUPPORT YO CONCERT!!!^^

OH

TODAY AFTER SCH ME AND PINGYU CONTINUED THE LIZARD EXPERIMENT. XD

SCARED MORE YR 3s AND 4s! XD

OKOK
We tried the experiment on Lip,Kejia, Claire(yr3),Theodore,MS WANG, Yingwei, Norvin, and more..forgot alr.

HAHA KEJIA AND CLAIRE SO FUNNEH.
:D
MS WANG DIDNT WANT TO TOUCH IT CAUSE SHE SAID IT'S DIRTY.-.- BUT SHE STILL TOUCHED IT. XD
THEODORE JUST LOOKED AT IT AND SAID ,"WHAT IS IT", THEN WE SAID SQUASHED LIZARD, THEN HE SAID" NO.." THEN WE SAID" YESS IT IS!!" THEN HE SAID "DOESNT LOOK LIKE ONE.."THEN WE SAID "YEAS IT IS ONE CAN SEE THE SKELETON?" THEN HE SAID "EWW."

lol.-.-

oh we wanted to interview and scare fjj and ongsim but then they just walked away..
before they walked away ongsim said she's y3 , 4, and 5, then fjj said his name is NG JUN JIE wth waste time la hahahaahah sigh then they just walked away leaving us dumbfounded.-.-but quite funneh also. :DD

erm Lip said it's COOL!!! AND JONATHAN TOO! HAHAHAAH nicee.
Norvin just smiled and he touched it! MOLTO BRAVE-O!! haha kk
Yingwei just asked us where we found the lizard, and she touched it too!

yay

WE HAVE COMPLETED THE INTERVIEW!! WOOOHOOOOO!!! HAHA PINGYU HI-5!
okok
gtg now.
P.S
Cant believe i grew 6 ULCERS in a day.wth i think i ate sth im allergic to...
ahhh painnnnnahhh......:(
BYEBYE!
sigh hope i'll play for this concert...

Somethings just force me to think about the purpose of life.
Why are we here?
Because, we're here for each other, thats why all of us are here.
We have different personalities, some even have SPLIT personalities, some have nice personalities and etc
But then
i ask myself
why are we so different? why do some ppl want to be evil? why are some ppl so nice? why ah?Why ppl smoke even though it's harmful to your health?

Probably bcos of the surroundings and ppl around us.
Everyone has the power to lead, everyone has the influence on other ppl, everyone has their own RIGHTS ...


sigh i wish i can be a baby again, unaware of the unhappy happenings around me, and to live a happy smiling life. (:...sweet..

We must really cherish our time on earth, because, anytime, anywhere, we can just disappear from this land, and then it'll be too late for regrets.
We have to say what we want to say now, or it'll be too late.
We have to do what we want to do now, or it'll be belated.
This is life.
Everyone is given time.
It's just how you use it, and how you make your time on earth meaningful.

Making your life meaningful is hard.
Sometimes you just can't find your own purpose/goal/telos in life..
Because of certain circumstances, one may lack confidence and thus having low self-esteem..
But, one can solve it with diff ways...
And it's one of the biggest challenge we face in life.
So we have to show ourselves, we can do it, then we'll feel accomplished and naturally feel glorious and proud of ourselves.
And we can overcome and overthrow these challenges, to make your life easier, and happier...
As well as to develop ourselves as an ardent human with virtuous values..

To love is to risk being not loved in return.
That's why, we have to step forward to take risks, only then we'll recognize our meaning of life by experiencing experiences..
Liking someone not liking you in return, is one of the most dreaded feelings on earth, but the most most most HURTFUL feeling is,
Liking someone but not having a chance to tell them how you feel...
I think it's better to stay as friends while we're young.
If we tell them how we feel abt them, most certainly it'll affects the friendship in this case..
Make ppl smile, because ppl's smiles are like an enchantment , an overwhelming joyful effect to me.
Smiles are like dozens of suns shining on our lives, a contracting/releasing of cheek muscles, when we're truly happy. (:

To have hope means to look on a brighter side of life, and it's a desire that you want sth to be fulfilled.
We must always have hope in our lives,
and live like there's no tomorrow..
and to LIVE AND FIGHT for our dreams, because that is our RIGHT to do so. Prove it that you can! ^^

Remember, life is short.
Do what you want to do now, provided it's ethical, ofcourse,
before you regret.

Just like what Lincoln said,
"It's not about the YEARS IN YOUR LIFE, BUT THE LIFE IN YOUR YEARS."
:D


Cherish Life.<3
And if you don't love yourself, how can you learn to embrace others?
Love yourself, believe in yourself, have faith in yourself,
and you'll succeed for sure.

There's no time to lose.
Make your life worthwhile now.

GAMBATTE!

i am really pissed.

Firstly, there's no one i really can trust in my circle of friends, except natalie, pingqi and pingyu.

I hope that those people who are spreading rumors, to STOP IT.
it's not funny, it's not very nice and it's very inconsiderate.
In fact, the rumor isn't true at all.

and, it's YOUR fault for letting ppl to see the messages in your phone, it's your FAULT FOR NOT SNATCHING YOUR PHONE BACK IN TIME.
and it's your(ANOTHER PERSON) fault for accidentally blurting out to V, thus, she spread to another ppl.

CAN YOU GUYS STOP ALL THESE NONSENSE. IT'S VERT IRRATIONAL AND ACCUSING TO ME.

stop it.
i dont like it.
now i know that there's no one to trust.
Just like the saying goes,
"It takes years to develop trust, but just SECONDS to DESTROY it.
and you'hv just proved this saying, RIGHT.

-

Secondly, i dont like ppl who dont have RESPECT for other ppl.
Fancy ppl LAUGHING RIGHT IN FRONT OF MR ONG, slapping each others' hands.
It's not very respectful.
Ppl LAUGHING AND TALKING SO LOUDLY while we're supposed to do arc journal and our group work..

I may sound like some grumbling robot, but these are true.

please, show respect.
and don't anyhow spread rumors-TO THOSE WHO HAVE BIG MOUTHS BY NATURE.

Thanks.

YOYO

Yesterday missed chamber because of YO assessment. sigh screwed up Weber but Berlioz was fine. :)

ok.

Got back physical science test !! got 19/23 hehehaho!! XDXDXDXDXD initially i got 19AND THE HALF.

Had MATH SA yesterday! IT WAS DARN EASY!! :DDDDDDDDD :DDDD ^^ ahyo but i only dunno how to do the first question of 2nd page walau/.-.-

Sigh.

Today during radio plays mr koh came in and taught us theory, sight reading/hearing, blabla.
And the SEVEN MODES! ^^

1)Ionian
2)Dorian
3)Phrygian
4)Lydian
5)Mixolydian
6)Aeolian
7)Locrain!

oh and we sang for like 2hours haha on pentatonic chord/scale, major/minor scale....
and we also learned pentatonic, hexatonic,Hepthatonic and Octatonic. ^^


HAHA MR KOH SAVED OUR LIVES. HE'S A SAVIER. OKK AAHA :D

JAKE COME BACK LAR. WANNA GET MATH PAPER BACK HEHEHA

byebye
PS im in school library now and squishy and ler are behind me. XDXD
I LOVE THEORY

hihi

today in the morning me and pingyu went to interview ppl for her group's arc project. haha i did it with her for the fun of it. ^^
we interviewed NJJ, Juvina, Thaddeus, Nabil(pingyu said how come he so familiar and she thought he was marcus lam.-.- XD), nurulhuda, shammah,yuki, jia cheng, mccoy, and i forgot still got some more i think hehehe

Then after school me pingyu shaz and lerler stayed back and continued interviewing.
Pingyu told me she showed some of the people my SQUASHED LIZARD heiheihei then omg the boys didnt scream at all walao not fun one. only the gals screamed. HAHAHA so funnny

So we continued to interview people in the canteen first, and we managed to used the lizard to scare some yr ones like dennis,tsumugu, jerico, grace, darryl,and some others hehe then they all SCREAMED SO LOUDLY HAHAHAHAHH POOR GALS. ONLY GALS SCREAM.-.-

Walao, we were trying to get tsumugu to hold out his hand without telling him we're gonna put a lizard on his hand, then that DENNIS WENT TO TELL HIM NOT TO DO IT HAHAHA OMG THEN PINGYU CHASED HIM AROUND AND SORT OF "APPREHENDED HIM"LIKE A POLICEWOMAN MANN OMG PROOOOOO!!EPIC SIA DAMN FUNNY!!! XD dennis said he freaked out when he touched the lizard hahahaha hhhaha hmm...and dennis also told tsu that its a lizard walao so sao xing sia...:(

ok so tsumugu knew about it, and we put the lizard on his hand, and his face was, EXPRESSIONLESS.-.-
Later he said that he aint afraid of those stuffs. see even tsu is braver than dennis.-.- HAHA!


We also went to try out the lizard experimentation with ROMIT haha
we put it on his hand,
HE LOOKED AT IT, AND SAID "SO CUTEEEE!!!!!:D"
THEN HE ASKED US WHAT IS IT.
WE SAID,
"ERM IT'S A SQUASHED DEAD LIZARD."
THEN HE SCREAMED" AHHHHHHH!!!!!!!" AND LEAPED BACK AND RAN AWAY LITERALLY !!!!OMGOMGOMGOMG DAMN FUNNEH SIA!!!!!!!OMGOMG HHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAAHAHHAHA! HE'S SCREAM WAS SO HIGH PITCHED HAHAHAH HEHEHEHEHE HO!!! XDXD


then we went to the hall bcos we wanted to scare kengyang with the lizard. he was playing soccer.
then we put the lizard on his hand, he examined it, and then HE THREW IT ON PINGYU'S FACE WTH (a friendly move haha) hahaha and it hit her forehead wth hahaah see can tell that he's scared. haha

ok then we went to the library to use the lizard to scare the yr four guys. ok then we put the lizard on calvin's hand, he just
stood there and looked at it and smile. lol walao why are the boys so brave.-.-

then we saw bennett and tried the experiment too.
he just looked at it, and said ohmy this is disgusting, but he's fascinated by it. but he didnt scream or run away.-.-
tchtsktsk.

okay yay we managed to complete everything haha even though im not from her class/group hehehe :) :)

such a funny day.


AND TMR IS YO REASSESSMENT!! AND MATH SA! TWO MAJOR HAPPENINGS AND EVENTS!!
GOD, PLEASE BLESS ME IM GONNA HAVE FAITH. I MUST BELIEVE IN MYSELF AND HAVE CONFIDENCE! AND SMILE! :D

ok byebye such a long post bye! ;)
girls, be braver than the guys!!!

OH

We ended school at 1 15pm today, then I TOTALLY FORGOT THAT I HAVE IS AT 1 30 mann and still need to prepare , tune, blablabla.
Then i went to queue up and buy food. THEN I REMEMBERED!!!WOAH LA ohmy then i GOBBLED up my food like mad and i ran to the GO to get the key, but TongLin booked my room first and she went up alr! alamak, then i saw my IS teacher. *dun dun dun* then ms ariana gave me EP5's key and i thought it was dr koh's copy of P3 wth
then i went up with my IS teacher, and then i went down again to get the right copy and to look for tonglin cause she's nOT inside her room ahyo
Luckily got my IS teacher's lift pass sigh hehe
I rushed down, and ms ariana called tonglin, and i rushed up again.-.-

Then i saw tonglin and my IS teacher standing outside P3, then we debated who should use the room cause tonglin was supposed to have SIP in THAT room as well lol sigh

BLABLABLA and 5 min is gone. then tonglin let me have the room because i told her there's the ep5 room she can use!!PHEWPHEW

WA SHE 'S REALLY KIND SEH then she has to run down and get the key of ep5 oopsy sowwwwweeee!!!!!!!t^T

MY IS TEACHER TOLD ME SHE'S THE DAUGHTER OF A CHINESE DIZI VIRTUOSO omgomgomg wooottttoootttooott!!

ok im indebted to her alr. THANK YOU TONG LIN IM SORRY FOR THE INCONVENIENCE CAUSED BUT STILL THANKYOU GAMSAHAMNIDA!!!!! ^^ :DD XDXD

Today's IS was good!! Ms Qu said that I IMPROVED WOO HOO!^^
She asked me whether i practiced ALOT during the weekends because i just had IS last friday and today's my make-up lesson LOL.

I DID NOT.

haha i only practiced in school, not at home. I cant play the yangqin at home because it's spoilt you see. and my mum doesnt want it to get fixed or changed or whatever sigh :(

So im like sooo dependent on the school's one, hahaha :)

I really hope i can perform Sunshine on Tashukurgan in some evening concert with my accompanist, hopefully. ^^ hehe :) :)
woahohohlalalaooolalalalalalalalalalalal

HELLO!!!!

Got back science Life science paper today. got 15/19. HEHE same as bryan ^^

Oh ya hor today han kim is leaving for london lol okay byebye bon voyage!

Oh noes i havent done IA yet. The book's all blank.-.-

Today during life science MS BONG SHOWED US A GOAT'S HEART AND SHE SLICED IT OPEN AND SHE PUT HER FINGER THROUGH THE VENA CAVA ARTERY AND THE PULMONARY ARTERY LEH!!! OMGOMGOMG SICK I WENT TO PUT MY FINGER THROUGH THE ARTERIES AND TOUCHED THE HEART AS WELL. IT'S COLD, AND IT EMITS THE SMELL OF BUTTER.-.- -.- eek and alittle bloody with the flesh and fats still stuck to the muscles of the heart IKKITY YEEK!!!!!D; poor goat. :(

MATH SA ON THUR! YO ASSESSMENT ON THUR! SO MANY THINGS ON THUR! :(
depressed.
Without you how can i still smile.

HELLO

now is raining. so dark, but i love rain. :)
Its good to cheer things up.

Nowadays i have so many things to do

Prepare for YO reassessment(im so gonna prove OEY wrong.hmph. me and xiuyi cant even see her she cant see us she took it as we cant play. hmph grrr oh wells OEY do u know i practise EVERYDAY! hmph i feel so sad and offended but heck la, i'll just play well on thur infront of mr lim, and prove OEY wrong.)

ARC interviews!
Have to interview ppl from 20+ 30+ . HELP if u are 20+ 30+ 40+ please HELP
Im interviewing mr seow now haha heck lah.
Only managed to interview three ppl, plus One until HALFWAY then gone liao wth hahaha
ohwells.

CHINESE SA ON MON TMR!
ok so chinese SA
gotta write on spring
i hate summer,
I love spring.
this is so lame.

MATH COMMON TEST NEXT WEEK
Omg, with all those algebraic expressions..hmmm...make blabla the subject of the formula. sigh stressed--
hope i can do well in math

IHSS project
On computer..that's better i think..CONFUCIUS and Aristotle

VIOLIN
Saint Saens Violin Concerto In b
Bach Gigue and Sarabande
Beethoven Spring Sonata(my idol!!^^)
Finger and string crossing exercises
YO Fantastic Symphony
YO Euryanthe Symphony

And to PRACTISE EACH OF THEM, WELL?! ohgod..:X

PIANO
Beethoven's sonata Op 27 No. 1 (1ST AND 2ND mvt)(my idol again!^^)
Chopin's Polonaise in A major
Accompaniment for my sister's ABRSM on the 30th march for grade 3..-.-
-three pieces,
Lady Hudson's Truffle or whatever, O mio babbino caro, Ole Joe Clark. STRESSED---

YANGQIN
Sunshine on Tashkurgan..:) i like this piece.
Tornado(feng bao) i like this too
Haiyan. i like this THREE!
LOL.=.=

Chamber
Wang bei dou...sigh dr koh please dont do it.. please dont. we are so goona play better....

Radio Play
Gotta find the soundscape for Sorry, Wrong Number.
AHHHHH~~
okay but its fun! :)
but still, stressed..

LASTLY
my sprained, bluish black swollen ankle.

Im so gonna kick all these obstacles away, good luck to me...

....
I shall remain happy.
YES OK

CHENGJIN IS HAPPY!!!! =DD

TODAY WE HAD OPEN SYMPOSIUM.
HAHA
I would like to thank danielle for buying me my dinner while i was having IS, thankyou so much!!!! =DDD i like the cheese and strawberry cake, THANKS hhehe :D!!


I was in-charge of the MUSIC registration, while Joyce was at VA's, Clancy was at Dance's, and Selma was at Theatre's. HAHA then we talked some funneh stuffs HAHA

Danielle Amni Ernest Ng Jun Jie Zandra were helping to usher ppl heheee.

Meizhi Yutong were taking photos of us talking to parents haha.

SO FUN.
hahaha, VA got alot of parents/ppl sia!
Music the least one lor. :(
Dance also got alot! theatre also!
va the most la haha.

The performances IN THE HALL were AWESOME!
RYCE IS/was REALLY PRO. I THINK she played Bach's Partita in E major. HAHA her right wrist is/was so flexible when doing the string crossings...
Then Poh Hian performed SOLO sia! Also damn nice!!! =DD
but she did those weird actions of lying down the floor, twisting her body with the background music blabla wahaha...
Then Han kim was like " She's cleaning/wiping the floor hahaha"! HAHAHAHA LOL!! XD

When dr koh and ms yang were briefing the music parents, I was outside doing MATH hw with han kim hahahe bcos my parents were inside the hall.-.- Oh and walao he kinda "wasted" my correction tape heheehe.WA both of us suck at maths sia sigh ya so many questions dont know how to do, gotta ask my tuition teacher this sun haha. :( :)

Talked to Ryce just now. She's so kind and nice hahaha! :D

okay gtg sleep now, byebye! yay i feel so happy today! =D

TODAY IS FUNNY.

I WENT INTO THE TOILET TO DO SOME BUSINESS, THEN I FOUND I HAVEN'T GOT ANY TISSUE IN THAT CUBICLE WALAO. THEN I PANICKED SIA!
THEN I ASKED PINGYU(WHO'S IN P4 ROOM) TO COME TO THE TOILET AND PASS ME TISSUE FROM THE NEXT CUBICLE HAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
HAAHAHHA
i know u all might find me shameless to say this or what, but HAHAHAHAAH sry sry this is too funny. XD

YESTERDAY, 17 FEB 2010, IS THE WORST DAY OF MY LIFE.
THAT DAY MADE ME REALISED THAT :
1) MY FOOT AND ANKLE IS VERY IMPORTANT TO ME AND I WILL TREASURE IT MORE!
2) HMPH I WILL TRY COMPO CLASS NEXT YR.

:(
Yes, i sprained my left ankle COMPLETELY yesterday in the morning, the left inner part of my ankle even touched the ground. The pain was excruciating, now i have a bandage with piercing smell from the chi medicine around my injured ankle. how i wish i can ACCIDENTALLY twist it back by spraining it again. How to go for open symposium limping my way around like that.. :(

Yes, I didn't get into compo class, I found out this bad news when daniel told me. Yes, i completely broke down, yes, i felt so sad.
Just like the saying goes " The more you hope, the more disappointment you'll get."
This is SO TRUE. :(
I WANT TO JOIN COMPO CLASS LA. :(
Yes I had been living on false hopes a few days ago..:(

BOOOOO HOOOOOOO NUUUUUUUU NOOOOOOOOO AHHHHHHHHH YAAAAAAAAA YAAAAAAAA BOOO HOOO!!!! D;

Thanks to my dearie friends, NATALIE CHIONH, PINGQI, SABRINA, ISABELLE for cheering me up.. :) I must believe that i can do it...AGAIN!!

i just watched 200 pounds beauty again. :)
and found out that i have the same birthday as the lead female actress : Kim Ah Joong, the person who sang Byul and Maria. :)

Byul is now my 2nd favourite song, and If remains as my favourite song too. :)

So sad, Byul means Star in korean.

Hear are the lyrics plus translation:
Byul

param gyeoli changeul heundeulgo
nae gimalhan jakeun nawei pan weouro
areumduphge byulbijdeureul
kadeul chaewojuneyo
malhi aphahajimah
nalkkok aneunchae dadokyojumyeo
jakjara weouro haejuneyo
keodji mothalmankkeum himekyeowon aphawado
nunmuli apeul karyeowado
kajjimothal nae sarang aphedo nan useullaeyo
jamshimado kyeote haengboghattdeon giogdeureul
kashime kanjig halkeyo
du nune suno najin jeobyuldeul
cheoreom yeongwonhi

Translation of Youme’s version:

the wind is shaking the windows,and over my small room,
the stars fill up the sky, shining brightly too many to count,
the stars reassure tired me
they wipe away the many tears that are deep inside me

don’t be hurt too much..they hug me tight and pamper me
and comfort me,
telling me to go to sleep

though I’m exhausted to the point where I can’t walk
though my tears blur my vision
I’ll still smile in front of my love that I’m not able to get

Even though our happy times were short, I’ll treasure it deep inside my heart
like those countless number of stars, forever

My dream is coming. though it is unusual that my one star is bright
it is very bright, even blinding..it comes down to my shoulder
stop being so sad..it holds my hand as it touches me
and gives me a warm hug

though I’m exhausted to the point where I can’t walkthough my tears blur my vision
I’ll still smile in front of my love that I’m not able to get

Even though our happy times were short, I’ll treasure it deep inside my heart
like those countless number of stars, forever

Only for today, I won’t cry though my eyes fill with tears
I want to laugh like those stars
Oh~ I want to cherish all my happy moments deep inside my heart
Like those countless number of stars, forever

:)
nice sad beautiful song, and now i have set my heart to learn KOREAN via online help.
It's just too beautiful.

DONT GO FOR PLASTIC SURGERY AH EVEN THO IT MAKE U LOOK MORE BEAUTIFUL.
IT IS UNHEALTHY AND IT'S TOO MUCH OF A RISK TO TAKE, U MIGHT DIE
SO DONT DO IT!
AND IF U OPEN UR MOUTH TO WIDE UR MOUTH WILL DROP OFF HAHA SERIOUSLY!
don't ever blame urself kay!
SAY HI TO THE WORLD. :)

Hello Michael Jade.
I don't know what's bothering you, i dont know what is happening, i dont know what made you depressed, i dont know what made you cry, i dont know why your tears are losing control.

but,
Even though I dont talk to you, you dont talk to me, i dont know you that well, you dont know me that well, but still,

cheer up k! I know alot of the things in this world are unethical and unfair (quote-canteen poster) but still,.. if you have a mentality of wanting to change this type of world, it may be difficult, but if you want to change the way you think about the world, there might be a chance!^^

I have been through many depressing and sad and upsetting stuffs all the time through my life, like ppl saying that i look really ugly but still i heck care them la they're just being really mean and judgemental and they just couldnt accept ppl of diff looks bleh..

trust me, i have experienced worst stuffs than that, like my friends laughing at me bcos....______... :( :( somemore one of my good friends initiated the humiliation. i couldnt believe it how could my good friend do this to me.. i trusted him so much.. I mean, i know it's not my fault bcos they were laughing at my looks but i dont care. :( and my good friend was laughing too like he SO ENJOYED it..that time i really truly felt sadness ABLAZING in my heart like fire roaring and i can't wait to hide away in embarrassment..

I cried a few times before yeah because i just couldnt tolerate the humiliation when i am conscious that i havent done anything wrong.it's just not fair, not nice, not acceptable, not ethical, no rational, not cognitive, not understanding, not apprehensing and it's mean veryveryvery mean. :(

but yeah i still cried. but after i cried i closed my eyes and pretend that that humiliation didnt happen at all. and that those people were basically ppl who "CHI BAO MEI SHI ZUO". :( sometimes i just couldn't exterminate that depressed mood and low self-esteem in my heart..sometimes i failed to stay happy no matter how hard i tried too..

Then i cheered myself up by thinking random happy memories in my head.. :) i'll automatically smile when i thought of funneh stuffs, eg how i walked into the boys toilet ALOT of times, and when there's a time when i thought LI REN was a girl in the boys toilet just by randomly glancing at his pe shorts, then i jus walked in and bleh...T^T haha...atleast that can make my lips arch into a smile...:P

So michael, please, cheer up if there's really something that's upsetting you...I can feel it.. and whenever you are depressed/emo i will be sad too...

So give me a smile kay...

I love your smile..everytime your smile has the power to make me smile..everytime. you smiled at me quite a few times, and i haven't got enough of it.. even though i cant see you now (obviously) and even though i kept telling myself to forget but i just want you to smile and be happy, whenever and wherever you are.


i know i will never know what happened because we're not that close to each other lol..

I dont dare to talk to you on facebook...bcos im just a coward who cant seem to be brave, at all...at such circumstances, ...

I can only write all my thoughts here...

So smile yeah! open your heart and let your sadness/sorrow gush out of your heart like raining ice milo k...

I will always be your secret back-stage supporter, always, forever, even though you can't notice me but i dont care i'll just support you always.

with love
cheng jin.
SMILES! ^^

Chengjin suddenly felt sad.
Okay, bcos when i read ppl's blogs they all have the same thing on them which is sth like
"I spend the most boring hours of my life during cny celebration on fri"
or
" cny celebration is really boring "....
I MEAN, U ARE A CHINESE RITE! SO BE PROUD OF UR FESTIVAL MAN!

HEYO.
TODAY WE CELEBRATE CHINESE NEW YEAR IN SOTA!!WOOT

Didnt manage to try chi knot-tying cause me and pingyu went off at 9 20 to the GO hahaha...

Me, Marcus, Geneva, Pingyu performed as the first item!
Okay, i talked to michaelthefirst a few times today haha
Performance was great!
The chi percussionists were awesome too omg when they said "HAAA!" i was laughing with pingyu at the backstage! XD
Then pingyu jumped off the mats onto the stage, and there's a loud "BUMP" after the performances hahahaah omgomg then i saw yuru staring at her with a stunned expression omg she almost jumped at yan lee lol wtheck hahaahah!!!! XD funneh

I LOVE PINGYU. <3 ^^

After that calvin helped me to carry my yangqin top back. OMG HE DIDNT EVEN REST SIA HE SEEMS TO HAVE SUPERGLUE ON HIS HANDS SEH THAT STICKS TO THE YANGQIN omgomgomg stronggg
OK, then in the lift his back was dropping off his shoulder lol and he asked me to help him drag it up and put it back on his shoulder hahah...o.o
I felt so weak. Yeah i am. o.o AHYA can't even carry my own instrument top for a long time lol damn.

Really grateful for helpful ppl like geneva pingyu yanlee and calvin for helping me to carry that bulky yangqin haha thankyou!

Awesome day!
Mr stromberg told me that he'll only release the results for the compo class applications after cny lol my anticipation has suddenly disappeared sighya..i bet i stand no chance against JOSHUA and han kim lah ........... :( :(
okay nvm the outcome doesnt matter la so long as i know i have tried my best yeah i'll be contented alr..
even if i cant go into compo class i'll try when im yr 3 . . i'll try every year so long as im still alive LOL...

happy chinese new year readers! =D
Its time to get that angbaos..

omg today is one really meaningful funneh day!

After school, me and pingyu were practising in p3 and p4 respectively.
Lucas and joel came in to ask me if they can borrow extra chairs HAHA, too bad i have no extra chairs....o.o they're having string quartet just beside p4 HAHAHAHA! :)
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Then i went into pingyu'a room, and saw this millipede crawling under the piano! then i told py then she was really excited mann hahahaha
then she used her gloves and picked it up, and we brought it outside, where there's soil, leaves, and blabla.
The millipede started crawling down the "wall", then pingyu was touching it and pressing it very gently, but i noticed that she Crushed some of its legs!ohdear so poor thing then pingyu was like" really?!?!' haha sigh
the millipede is really special. There's translucent "lights" from the sides of its body, and its legs are white in colour!! :DD
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Then dr koh saw us. *dundundun*
she said " WHAT ARE YOU DOING?" to us haha luckily she never scold us but only told us to go back to practice lol.
Pingyu laughed like mad today. HAHA siaozabor! :) :) HAHAHAHA i like her laughter.
Then after we practiced for some time , we went out to see how the millipede is doing.
BUT,
we saw it is INFESTED WITH BLACK ANTS ON ITS BODY MAN omg so poor thing!!!!!!!!
And we realised its body is BROKEN INTO HALF BUT NOT YET COMPLETELY BROKEN INTO HALF lol omg!!!
So we decided to use gloves and move it to some other place hahaha to save it, and i tried to blow those hungry black ants away to save the millipede's life.
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THEN DR KOH CAME AND SAW US AGAIN WALAU HAHAHA.
She said" Why are you all still here??!!!" in an angry tone lol.

then i tried to "escape" back into p3 LOL, then she said "chengjin?" haha ohno.
then i went back, and together me and pingyu told her the story of the poor millipede.
Then she suddenly became SO NICE, SO GENTLE, SO COMPASSIONATE HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
then she helped us to move the millipede using her pencil and a leaf. hahahah omg she's so nice! and kind!;)
so we succesfully moved it to another place filled with soil, leaves rocks plants, just outside the practice rooms lol.
HAHA
but i wonder how is it doing now. Is it dead? sigh. :( :( so poorthing.
Me and pingyu kept laughing for no reason. HEHEHEHE
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Then we went down and wanted to ask kengyang if we could practice in classroom 45.
Then he was like " No need la! mr quek not coming today! CNY CELEBRATION MANN NO NEED LAR!"
haha, okies, then we went out of B1, and we saw bamboo.
Then we asked bamboo if we're practicing chamber even if mr quek didnt come.
Then he said ask kengyang la and he said he's willing to practice.
AND,
he called __________ a _________!!!!!!!!!!ohdearomgomgomgog omgomgomgomgomgomogmgomgogmogmgogmgomgomgogmgomgomgogmogmgomgogmogmgogmgomgogmogmgomgomgomgogmgomgogmogmgomgomgogmogmogmgogmogmgogmgogm!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG......
ok this is confidential so i cant state her name.
LOL.
in the end we didnt get to practice, but me pingyu geneva and marcus practiced our piece for CNY instead in P4 HAHA. :)
All went well. YAY :)
Really excited for tmr!! ^^
mr ryan told us that the lift has broken down, that's why he climbed the stairs, all sweaty and smelly haha then pingyu LAUGHED LIKE SOME MAD WOMAN again!! HAHAHAHAHAHAAH
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oops. okay.
Sigh, hey secretary cheer up soon! :)

hey,
I did not change from last year to now. I am still chengjin, am or was, the SAME.
I am most aware of whether did i change or not. I am sitting in the Conscious seat of Self, in my heart. So I am the one who's fully aware of what and who I am, and whether i have changed or not.
Yes, i agree with you, that i sometimes have the mentality to change because of some negative processes that happened in my life. I felt it wasn't fair when somethings doesnt work in my favor. I felt as i have been somewhat isolated.
I wanted so much to be more recognizable.
But, i did not change. I am still the one I am, last yr and this yr. Bcos i love the way I am shaped till now. And i dont want to lose the old me, so i am still the OLD me.

And please, i am not a camwhore. Neither do i want to be one, cause being a camwhore reflects self-indulgence.
But i DONT.
Yes, i go crazy about idols, like LEEMINHO haha. He's just an actor that i watched in a nice drama, and i truly ADMIRE his character in that drama. That's why, i go crazy over him, but please, i do not like him. Im just CRAZY over him when ppl mention his name muahaha. My idol is also beethoven, and what's wrong with it. What's your prob, he inspired me. ohplease, i dont even have the freedom to have an idol right? are you implying and indicating that i'm not FIT to have one? well i guess thats not what u are implying, if so, then whats your prob.

Like leeminho for what? it's not like he'll fly over to singapore and say hi to me and make my heart melt or whatever yucky yeeek stuffs. I only admired him as a personified idol, please.
I do not go FRANTICALLY CRAZY over guys. EEW, you made me sound like some slut. This is very insulting and i dont like it, PRINCESS FLUTTERBY.
Atfirst when i came into this school, i don't care about anything except only for STUDIES and MUSIC. But ppl around me influenced me alot, and i dare not say that the influence on me doesn't take any effect, it did.
Ppl have crushes even in sec one, and i felt that it's absolutely "irrelevant" to your life as an early teenager. Studies are much more important and what's more, we're all too young anw.
But, this guy with the warm smile touched me in early april, and that's the rarest warmest smile i have ever seen, so yeah im enthused. but not now anymore, as i have told you long ago.
Yes, i always LOVE THE THINGS OF THIS WORLD. God created so many wonderful things in this world for us humans to enjoy and live with. I always love all of them.
And no, the person i liked, is not to blame.
There's actually NO ONE to blame, except myself. I'm the one who let the influences from ppl around me to get the better of me, im the one who is easily affected emotionally, by other ppl. But i still do not change. I learnt new stuffs everyday, and i keep the old ones.
i can promise you that i have my own feelings, i have my own character, i have my own special parts to be happy of.
And i didnt say that facebook status you posted, is for me. Please don't be so judgemental, YET.

The "ohmygod, oh my bra , oh my tian"....or whatever, is what I say in EXCLAMATION, girl.what's the prob with saying "ohmybra?" it's just a piece of cloth. comeon dont make me go into detail.LOL.-.-
Btw, yeah my mum is scary, my mum is fierce, but i dont curse the one who feeds me. i am not that bad like you said. i said, she is like a monster. people stereotype monsters as scary, fierce, sometimes evil. yeah that was what i meant, and it's just an adjective to describe my mum, but this is definitely not cursing, and i dont curse, like you do.And i have much much more words to describe my mum, because i also know she cares for me, as a mother would, for her child.

Yes, bamboo is like a *****. Yes, i admitted that i have said that. I know i dont understand bamboo that well, but atleast i know some of bamboo's past that you dont know, so i have more understanding of him, than you do. And ***** is also just an adjective, definitely not a curse, and it doesnt insults ppl, because if people know that they are ******* themselves, then they will not get insulted, because they're alr subconscious.
You are the one who thinks you're so original and perfect, and your words really contradict, dear.
I do not think i am perfect. Like what you said, we have our own flaws. What did i say that resulted in you thinking that im perfect, come on, lets see what evidences you got. PPl who think they're perfect, are always not humble, and they think they OWN everything, they think they always stand out, they think they're ALWAYS RIGHT when apparently they're NOT, they think that other ppl cannot be compared to themselves. And now, compare me with these. Am I thinking that im PERFECT? NO. I don't, and don't stereotype me so easily.
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Well, i never said that bamboo's a PIG. Omg, he's doesnt have enough fats to be one. He's not a pig, neither is his personality like one. I didnt say that.
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I do not want to be a coward, because a coward never learn to be brave, even to stand up for himself/herself.
And i am trying hard not to be one, even though i have Ochlophobia.
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And, the post(read the previous one) is not directed at you, and im not cursing your parents or whatever. I am quoting it from a book i read, which you obviously know the title alr, in my previous post. I am saying it, for myself, and other ppl who appreciates and accept who they are. It's not directed at you, really.You can answer your name anyway, and it's what i'll do too, but just answering more.
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ok, so you're saying you didnt change but im the one who changed? do you really know me THAT well? it's not like you are my friend since kindergarten.
You are not me, you dont experience WHAT im experiencing, ofcourse you're not conscious whether i have changed or not, so please dont easily judge me, because it may be the reverse way round, but you dont know. I cant say if you're the one who changed, because im not you, and i dont know and i dont feel your thoughts , my mind is not your mind.
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I dont hate you, i dont hate anyone, cause i believe hating ppl and bearing grudges will never NEVER NEVER improve the situation, and it only adds burden and emotional stress to yourself, so why bear hatred in your heart? I dont hate you dear. Dont misunderstand. I will never hate you.

Anw, i just wanna tell you that Yes, you're my best bestest friend that i once can communicate well with, and one whom i confess all my inner secrets with, one i truly treasured, one i truly admire and one i truly appreciated, because you have supported me when i was down, you have comforted me when i was sad, you have cheered me up when i was depressed, and actually in the whole of my 13+ years of life, you're the only friend that i felt and was closest to.not joking, really i swear you are. You are the nicest friend that one can share joy and happiness with, and vice versa..
You are always there when i needed you, and i still want you to be my accompanist if circumstances allow, but ofcourse, not BFF anymore, but like you said ofcourse we can still be friends. Quarrels are just obstacles, like the AIR between the two north poles of two magnets, but i believe, if you add a metal between, the two magnets will be attracted back, but now only with the metal thing in between, so they're not making any contact with each other still.
Let us forgive each other, and let us both apologize if we had done anything wrong, and let us once again embrace our lives with our hearts and soul, and let us continue be friends though.
I STILL WANT YOU TO BE MY ACCOMPANIST, 'CAUSE I BELIEVE AND PROMISED YOU, THAT I WILL GIVE YOU YOUR CHANCE THAT YOU HAVE BEEN DEPRIVED OF, AND THAT WE WILL WORK WELL TOGETHER WITH HAPPINESS AND JOY. Just treat this as the last-thank-you gift, of being my oncebestest friend in my 13+ yrs of life, and i hope ms yang will really really really agree, and i really do mean it too. I have not done anything to thankyou so far, so i want you to be my accompanist, and walk this final path of a bestie, with me.
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Good luck. ^^

OMG
I LOST MY ARC JOURNAL! I REALLY REALLY REALLY LOST IT WALAO EH! AHYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAAYAYAYAYAYAYALALALAMAKAMAK!!
I know i didnt lose it in sch, but at home. HOME. wth la sigh. Please God. I hope the man above can help me find my arc journal thank you.
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Today after sch i waited under the super duper uper hot sun for you, but you didnt come out. What a futile wait in vain.
:(
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Okay, i really love the book I borrowed from bishan library.
<< The Untethered Soul >>
OMG. This book certainly worked it's purpose of freeing and discovering oneself.
When you're depressed or emo or stressed or whatever, Don't ever close your heart no matter what. Nothing, nothing ever in this world, is worth to let you close your heart.
When you close your heart, you're stopping the inner energy from rushing into your heart, which is the energy center. Without energy, your heart isn't receptive and opened anymore, and you'll feel TIRED, not in the lack of sleep, ofcourse.
BUT, if you decided to let your heart open or open your heart, you'll welcome this energy to flow into your heart once again, and you'll start to feel the joy, love and enthusiasm, So why not? :)
The only way to stop your heart from closing, is to open your heart. You need to challenge your limitations, and believe that You Can Do it, and feel the fun of it. Your heart is like a phenomenal instrument, creating vibrations and harmonies that are far beyond the beauty of piano, flute, or strings. You can hear an instrument, but you FEEL your heart. (:
Your heart is an instrument filled with subtle energy that only few people will come to realize it.
YOU ARE NOT YOUR HEART, YOU ARE THE EXPERIENCER OF YOUR HEART. remember this.

I know, cheeeeem stuffs right. But these are all logical and they all make sense. This is something that is very important in life, and we must treasure it.
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If asked "Who are you?",
what do you answer? do you answer your name? which is most commonly what people say in reply?
NO.
Your name is only a term ppl CALL you, but think it carefully, does it reflects upon who you are? NO. Your name are just words, that make up a special term for people to identify your own presence.
Actually, you should reply,
" I am the one who sees. From back in here somewhere, I look out, and I am aware of the emotions , events, and thoughts that pass before me. "
:)
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Thanks to The Untethered Soul, I have really learnt alot, and i will open my heart always, so that i can be truly happy. hahahah
yay people comeon be happy yeah smile your way through life! XD
haha
byebye and i hope i can find my ARC JOURNAL SOON walaowalaowalaookokokokkkkkkkkkk kkkkkk kk hahahaahahahhahaha

WOWWOWWOW
Now you're saying as though you are so so so ORIGINAL. Excuse MOI? there's no copyrighted sign behind every action you do, every word you say, as well as your OWN NAME.
WOW, what did i copy you! i think you're saying it to the wrong person.
NO ONE IS ORIGINAL, BOOB. EVERYONE GOES THROUGH EXPERIENCES, LEARN FROM OTHER PPL'S MISTAKES, ETC, AND THUS THEY ARE BEING CONTOURED INTO WHAT THEY ARE AND WHO THEY ARE.
Unless, you think that YOU are so so so ORIGINAL that no one can copy you 'cause you're so OH ALMIGHTY but let me tell u sth you are not God, only God is the almighty one. You think you stand above all of us rite! that's why everything you do, is COPYRIGHTED, and only YOU can do it.
Yeaheyah, you don't know it, but you're being really selfish and you are really a person who cares about your own EGO.
Many times i have been observing your actions. You're really selfish. Really selfish in a way that you couldnt recognize your own COPYRIGHTED SELFISHNESS EH!

Yeah, incase i forgot to tell you, I AM VERY SENSITIVE but im definitely not fragile. You are the one who's always fragile, who curses people, who doesnt like fat and idiotic ppl, who doesn't like ppl who speaks crap, and you're someone who is easily depressed, and sometimes you wish YOU COULD JUST DIE ON THE SPOT OR SAVE A BULLET FOR SOMEONE. the "save a bullet for someone" part, is so HEROIC. OMG, SO HEROIC!!! wow but i bet you can only save THAT bullet for THAT person, and not others, not fat ppl, not idiotic ppl, not people who speaks gibberish, not people WHO YOU THINK WHO COPIES you.
I think you should reflect on your own behavior, and your STATUSES on facebook alr REFELECTED who u truly are.

WE HAVE NO ABSOLUTE RIGHTS TO CALL PPL IDIOTS, AT LEAST THAT'S WHAT I HAD NEVER DONE BEFORE. WE HAVE NO RIGHTS TO CURSE PEOPLE, BY CURSING THEM TO PUT THEIR FAT HEADS IN THE LARGE TOILETBOWL WITH SHIT AND WAKE UP FROM THEIR STUPID LIFELESS FANTASY. ITS NOT LIKE YOU'RE LIVING IN A WONDERFUL FANTASY YOURSELF. HOW WELL DO YOU UNDERSTAND THE PERSON YOU'RE CURSING! IF YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND THEM WELL, WHY JUDGE THEIR FANTASY! GOD MADE US ALL DIFFERENT, AND IT'S NOT LIKE WE HAVE TO BE ALL THE SAME LIKE YOU RITE YOU NEHNEH.WE LIVE DIFFERENT FANTASIES, AND WE SHAPE THEM AND CONTROL THEM OURSELVES. STOP BEING A BUSYBODY AND INTERFERE WITH THEIR LIVES, ESP IF YOU DON'T KNOW YOUR OWN LIFE WELL.

You can go find some INTERESTING cliques yourself, it's not like I care or sth. I'm just grateful that i don't have a friend, so selfish, so egoistic, like YOU, is or was.
Oh, and btw,
U used "I did ask you if you wanted to swap the stupid thing back, but you were so darn mad at me (for nothing) that you didnt respond. and i swapped it with the idiot in front, not you." in your post.
HMM, let's see, you described the wooden board as "STUPID" and you described that guy infront of you as an "IDIOT".
get what I meant? see, this can also reflects YOU.

First of all, the board is not stupid in any way. It's just dusty. That's all. STUPID? this shows that you exaggerate much on your words and you use INAPPROPRIATE words to describe INNOCENT , INNOCUOUS non living stuffs.
2nd, you described that guy infront of u during IA as an "IDIOT". Well, i guess this doesnt need explanation, its tad obvious already.
Thirdly, yes you asked me if you wanted to swap that board back, but i said i dont. BUT, IM NOT LIKE YOU. I DON'T EDGE AWAY FROM DIRTY STUFFS ON THE SURFACE LIKE YOU DO, THAT'S WHY, IM FINE WITH ANYTHING SO LONG IT CAN BE OF SOME USE TO ME(non living stuffs). yeah, anw, do u wanna know why IM PISSED with you? alright i'll say it.
You, saw the dusty board on my table. and both of us know, that it is INITIALLY yours.
So, it's still YOUR board on my table. How can you explain that you swapped with the guy infront of you? yea, MAYBE you did swapped with him. Then he MIGHT have swapped with mine's without me knowing it. I came back to my seat. i saw YOURS, and then you ASSUMED that i have this ANGRY look on my face, and you ASSUMED that im PISSED at you FOR NO REASON. Even IF, im saying IF, that guy swapped with me, you should have stopped it. Instead you didnt. Until you noticed this angry look on my face and fruitmango telling you that i knew alr, THEN you asked me if u wanna swap back with you. Im stating the facts.
You don't assume anything without proof, and it's not like you're SO damn good in virtualizing facial expressions and concluding them into emotions.
YOU ARE THE ONE, who doesn't want your OWN ohsoprettyandgentleandslender hands to get dirty.
Well in conclusion i think your mind is just defiled and contaminated and CORRUPTED with ugly words, like IDIOT, STUPID, SHIT, FAT HEAD, ETC. I think you like to say those words just for fun AND TO ADD EMPHASIS, but the term "IDIOT/STUPID ETC" also gives one a negative status. Ms Bong once said that what you say is what you are going to remember, and what you remember is also what you are GOING to write. And sure enough you included them in your cursing statuses. You see it for Yourself. You wrote it yourself, and you have just cursed someone, lightly, but the words portrayed your character, and what you're always thinking.

Well, i don't boast that i have a VERY GOLDEN heart like you have said, well, we have no rights to boast too, if not it's called self-praise. It's only proven, if others say it. And bambootheyounger said it. Thus, now i knew something to be atleast alittlebit happy of. You said you wanna improve your character too, but it's only recognisable if people around you see it. Well, I DON'T.

Now i know why bamboo doesnt like you. Pretty, so what! IT'S THE CHARACTER THAT MATTERS.
Yeah, go slim your body down all you want and look prettier, as well as to put pimplecream or whatever on your face so that you'll look so clean for SOMEONE to see.
I HECK CARE.

God is always watching, you know it, i know it. We all know.
God reads your mind too. so i think you better clean it, hopefully not with some TOILETBOWL brush or whatever.

I am sad. It's just not fair. I can't see her cause im at the back, and with this, she judged me as someone who cant play well. Not that i play very well or sth, but I DID practice alot, and I have always been true to the pieces and to the orc. It's just not not fair. I am going to PROVE YOU WRONG, purple glasses.
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Today's IA was pretty fine.
Hey YOU. It's just a normal wooden board and it can be used too! What's your problem for discriminating it and switching it(secretly) with other ppl so that yours can be CLEAN?!?!
Such little acts can already judge your personality.
Your Personality IS BLACK I TELL YOU.
Please stop judging a book from its cover. Please. You are one of my best buddies and im really shocked by it. You are pretty, yesh i know/ BUT it's the inside that matters. Please, be a person with a golden heart. (: IM not angry with you 'cause i wanna forgive and forget, and if youre reading this please change. Thankyou.
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Today's math FA was good.
BUT IM STUCK AT THE FIRST PAGE WAHAHAHO WALAO SIGH/
Then the rest are easybeasy. HAHA last question is damn easy lar ahya
but first page is made up of 5 MARKS!!!that means atleast i'll lose 5 MARKS which is ALOT. Damn. :( I shall pray.
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I CANNOT FIND MY ARC JOURNAL AND LIFE SCIENCE TEXTBOOK WALAO EH ALAMAK WO DE SKY AH!
Im screwed. Really screwed.*uses palm to bang head*
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This is my prayer in desert.
Oh refine me Lord through the flames.
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Today is ok la.
haha.
Went to Fort canning hill. wrote down all the chinese translations of scenaries in my phone lol. damn pretty and beautiful and nice sia! i didnt know singapore has such a heavenly scenary too.. :) like autumn! :) okayy then i accidentally CLEARED my words WALAO ahya shittyshittybangbang saiya so i retyped them again stupid phone haha lol.
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During radionplays dr koh asked as to go down and help mr quek carry the anklung or sth.
went down to the 1st floor, with dr koh leading us(she's like a gang leader)and when we reached, she asked us to go back up since lotta yr threes/fours were also there too wth waste our time.but quite fun lah haha
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lol hhaha. ok.
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Saw You today. You are surrounded by girls. :( but i'll wait for u. (:..
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Yay tmr all strings reh. ^^

The moment i woke up today, I felt sick. My parents told me not to go to school, but I still went. sigh

During two periods of PE, ran 27.5 laps around the hall, in 15 mins. Sigh I was supposed to walk but I ran. HAHA. If I weren't sick I could have run 30 laps, that's 2.4 km. LOLLLLL times 80metres mah. LOLtch

Got chi FA results back. Passed, and I could have gotten 26/32 damn it shyt ahya. NVM I SHALL WORK HARD NEXT TIME. *depressed*

CONGRATZ MIN MIN AND PINGQI!~~(QI PING) XD HAHA

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Some YEAR THREE GUYS SHOUTED " PESKY YEAR TWOS! PESKY YEAR TWOS!" to me, ler and pingqi at the rooftop, when we OBVIOUSLY DIDNT DO ANYTHING THAT IRRITATED THEM. WHAT'S THEIR PROBLEM? THEY ARE THE ONES GETTING PESKY BY SHOUTING THAT, NOT US! sorry if any yr threes are reading this.
If THOSE YR THREE GUYS FIND THAT IT'S FUNNEH AND THEY WANTED TO JOKE WITH US AND TO SEE WHAT OUR REACTIONS WILL BE, I THINK THEY FAILED IN DOING SO. PLS, YR THREE GUYS, PLEASE STOP DOING THAT. U NEVER KNOW WHAT OUR REACTIONS WILL BE. WHEN I HEARD THEM SHOUTING THAT, I FELT REALLY REALLY OFFENDED, AND PLEASE GUYS STOP STOP STEREOTYPING THE YR TWOS, NOT ALL ARE IRRITATING PLEASE. THANKYOU FOR UR KIND CONSIDERATION GUYS. (:
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Ek, i think YOU should private ur blog, cause u made it TOOOOOO obvious alr.
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Stayed back and played BADMINTON with Cheston, LerLer and Xavier in the hall. AWESOME hahahaha Xavier(ultimate failure according to chestnut hahaha) XDXD sorry hahajk
Yay my badminton skills really improved! wootttt
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Today i saw YOU, but didnt manage to talk to u though.
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LOL k byebye. I have to off the fans tonight. I will get well by tmr. and go to school ofcourse LOL yay.. (:
bye ppl! :)

U say you don't and you won't flirt with him, but what you are doing now, really contrast your words.

Today is an OKOK day. (:

Firstly, we RAN around the rooftop sia during PE. so HOT!!! :( im horribly tanned. :( Ms koh said that one round is about... 280m long? Im not sure...o.o I think i ran more than 5 rounds altogether in all.. nobody bothered to count. LOL walao Xavier can run damn fast. ugh

After sch, we went from 5th floor to 9th floor, then to the 10th floor, then back to the 6th floor, then went back to 5th floor(GO), then went up to 6th floor(take our bags) then went up to 9th floor to move instruments.
Then I walked back down to 5th floor again to book classroom 45 to rehearse with pingyu geneva and marcus(marc)XD. then went back to the 9th floor again...i think i missed out somemore. LOL. sigh, my legs feel sore now.

Tomoro still got TWO PERIODS OF PE! NUUUUU ARE WE GONNA RUN AGAIN???!!!! DIE . :(

Today's rehearsal with Pingyu, Geneva and Marcus Lam went smoothly and well. :) YAY from the speed of 100, we raised it to 150. HAHA damn shiok. Yay at this rate of going we no need to practice everyday le yay (: AWESOME PEEPS LOVE U GUYS (:

Left my yq in Classroom 45. LOL. the grand piano there sure sounds awesome. Played third movement of Appassionata there. AWESOME Man. (:

I was dressed up as a nerd today with pingyu, trying to do cartwheels, then ms yang saw me, and later in GO she said "btw, were you dancing in the hall just now? HAHAHAHA!" hahahaha omg the way she laughed was really extremely hilarious. HAHAHA

I just realized that I only get to know SICK stuffs when i come into sota. I didnt realise i WAS PURE u know! I was really pure!!! now i came to know all these sick terms and stuffs hahahahah lol
shyt i must cast what i have learnt about them away outside my mind. I want my mind to continue being PURE. lol.

hAHAHAH byebyebyebye ______, byebye-______, byebye ________!

I only know what's 6 PACKS when i came into sota as well. XD wa atleast that's not so sick. (:

okay, im ggirlpure! my new name.! (:
LOL
ok byebye! Good luck for pe. :(

OMG
FREAKING OVER MATHS
HOGGING NEVILLE AND YINGWEI FOR TUTORIAL NOW.
OHDEAR I SUCK.
AH
SO TIRED
HAVENT FEED SAMMY YET!
DAMN
AHHH
HELP

I am sad.
I think she likes him lar. Can tell alr from her blog posts.
Just saw him today.
I really cant forget him. damn it.
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I shall try hard to. And give my full attention on STUDIES.
I GOTTA HAVE FAITH THAT I WILL LET GO.
Now, as i read the posts over and over again, I tried hard to fight back my tears.
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Life is unfair. I'm a loser, I'm a Failure, I'm useless.
I dont even have the guts to tell off someone when they cut queue, even though I'm really famished.
I don't even dare to speak, cause i have no courage at all.
And i realised that, im just a coward, loser and a failure.
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I wish God will be there for me and watch over me. I have no once to trust alr, except myself and God.
Love and God bless.